Have You Ever Felt Pain When Everything Was Numb

I wish that nightmares only happened in dreams Or lives that were so tightly joined together, didn't burst at the seams I wish that I could find the solution to the pain of losing a lover Or the pain of losing a sister or brother Condolences insult the wounds Hurt feelings and anger has the family consumed I wish that I could understand why a life so special could just end How do you mend a heart shattered into remnants? How do you heal a mother who's sweet baby is gone? When you know that baby will never come home? Grief has transported us to a dark place Sadness has turned to anger and alliances break. What could have been done to save this precious life? In order to find the answer, we MUST survive. The pain of losing a loved one is not temporary We carry the pain on our sleeve We cry deeper and harder for every tear they cant see. It's hard being the one that's left behind Especially when we were always side by side. Its hard holding the burden of missing you When I know that God must have missed you too. How could he not? Your smile lit up my world if not THE world Now I hide you in my heart The first step to healing is to start.