Have You Ever

Have you ever felt like jumping out of your skin? Like staying alive and dying hurt just the same so you dangle dangerously between two lines on the edge praying it won't crumble under your unbearable weight but at the same time summoning the courage to jump. Have you ever died inside? Felt the emptiness that hazes your days with black where you want to cry but nothing comes when there's a hole so wide and deep you can't figure out how you dug yourself to that point but there you are frayed,broken and falling apart your seams that hold you together are visibly untying and you hope that everything that makes you up whole will be enough in the end.