Hated Life

Why cant I do anything right? Why do I always cause the fights? Why do I make him hate me? Why do I always hurt him? I don’t wan to screw things up I don’t want to fight I don’t want him to hate me I don’t want to hurt him I always mess things up When things are going great I always mess things up No matter what I try not too, But I always screw things up My life is wasted All I do is hurt Nobody loves me anymore They only hate now I can’t go on like this I need to run I need to hide I need to fall… Fall so that nobody sees me… Fall so that nobody misses me…. Just fall off the face of the earth… I’m sure nobody would notice That’s not what I want I want to live I want to have a life I want to have that with him I want to be his wife I want to move away Taking him and his children Take them all away from this mess that we call “home” I want to move away So that we don’t have to worry anymore So we don’t have people stalking us I love him more that life itself I miss him when he’s gone I hate the thought of losing him It would kill me if it came true I can not live without him Not after all this time I wish to make it through this Just like all the other times We’ve been through things way worse than this Can’t we just have one more try? I need you in my life, Chad Or I will be no more.