Hannah

oh, my darling Hannah you and your mama have gone far away i am so afraid i will never see your joyous face again; nor will i get to look at your precious hannah hair all twisted up in little pig tails. my heart breaks for you; you have reminded me of what is important in life and what is not. i cry my sweetheart i cry out for you and your mama. my heart is stolen once again. your innocence is so precious and never ending. i know you were sent by God not for us to claim you but he is sharing you with our family. sometimes i think i cannot go on; i miss you so much. i comfort myself knowing that God always has his reasons you became our lives my darling, innocent beautiful child i knew i would get hurt if i loved you as much as i knew i would.... but with complete capitulation i loved you and i love you forever and my last breath. i love you without regret. i cherish every second with you. i thank your mama for coming home and letting me back into her life. God is taking care of all of us, one step at a time. i thank him for the happiness and time i have been given.. i want and need to hold you and your mama both. i want to to watch how you and your mama look as you are swinging on her hip as you walk up the sidewalk you both smile at me with those big smiles. i have that picture embedded in my mind. i stare at the pictures that i took. i tried to comfort your aunt because she feels and hurts so much too. i say to her.."hannah is not "our baby"... ... our job is to love her and her mama. that is what we are good at. i want all three of my darling girls to come back.....i need for you all to be here together so i can spoil you as much as i am able. i love you sweet baby. i love you my mindy. and you my darling rebel kimberly, you would be so stunned if you could see what my heart thinks about you both. i wish you could see in yourself what i see in you. so, now two of my three darlings are gone my darling, darling precious jewels, you make me so rich. i will always be a constant companion to each of you every day and night ...so fear not. no matter,... God is on a mission with me, so i promise... you will know you are in my heart of love with every single breath i take......... every single one by janetta