Google Search, What to do When I'm Always Blue?

My brain is flooded I feel so worn I’m always tired My mind is torn Too many options Not enough time I struggle But it’s in my mind I’m here and there I’m happy, I’m sad I’m never both But I’m always mad Many emotions In my head Most times I think, “I’m better off dead.” It hurts to think So I push it down But it builds up Into something … …I can’t turn off Maybe I’m sensitive Maybe I’m soft I try to tell people, But they blow me off Google Search, “What to do… …when I’m always blue?”