Goodbye, Brain Fog
I believe in You, despite the tough twists and turns…
But, this heart of mine – it burns…it churns…it learns…
To heal on its own through time, space and Your everything
Free verse helps me to let it all out in a heart beat as its meant to do
This brain fog – I will defeat, even in the heat of the moment too
Even if my mind grows so weary,
Know that I will never desert you…
Even if my eyes begin to get teary,
Know that God is with you through and through…
Although, it might not feel like it at the time of your suffering and tribulation alike
Quite interesting that you point out that I am not witty and sharp – you’re a mountain that I can barely hike
My mind has been in a brain fog lately…
But my writing skills haven’t faded frankly…
Well, I got nothing to lose for the time being naturally
Maybe my mind is renewing itself…igniting itself freely…
My mind has been in a brain fog lately…
But I’m not even afraid anymore honestly…
Why should I feel fear or shed a tear?
Why am I so gullible and brainwashed again?
Instead, be full of cheer, for God is here
If not, God is near…let a beautiful mind begin…
Tear away the remnants of sorrow
That tells me there’s no tomorrow
Why did I doubt in the first place?
Endure till the end and He will surely be merciful and mend…
This foggy mind of mine and yours…
Just watch His loving nature as it pours…
Into the palm of your hands…
We are like two parched lands…
Why did I write this in the first place?
I have come to think that I’ve written this for the sake of all…
Left without a trace in front of my face
With a broken heart and a foggy mind, I must still stand tall…
Even if I make a fall…
Even if I have lost it all…
Bewildered out of nowhere…
I can’t stand, feeling despair…
Hey, look…listen, I hear a certain, odd something…
I hear words flood into my brain – it’s not nothing…
Everything falls into place somehow…so, live in the now…
Put it in His hands and we don’t need to sweat the brow…
I’m sorta speechless still nevertheless
But, my mind isn’t in an empty mess…
But, it’s a temporary relief
Before another weed of grief
Decides to sprout in the ground of my mind…
Rooted deep inside – making me mentally blind…
I learned that silence isn’t always good or bad…
These thoughts of peace is the best thing I had
In many years – years full of cheers and tears…
Those mindless years when I was in a brain fog with endless fears…
I think guilt shouldn’t be in the picture
As far as I know, delight will be the cure
To the pain that’s written on my heart
To the waves of darkness that I soon will depart
As soon as I figure my way out of this brain fog I’m in
I’m a lonely log in the lake of lament, wondering where you’ve been…
Wondering where you’ve been again and again and again…
Sucking on my lower lip in defeat…
Rubbing away the dirt from my feet…
I’m afraid there’s no escape route in the aftermath of my hollow cranium…
Incessant illumination ignites in and out of me, feeling an out-of-the-body experience…who have I become?
Words crawl into my brain,
Driving me naturally insane
Going through manias here and there – doubts I tend
Can you complete my life story before I come to an end?
Can you make out what’s left of me?
Oh, is it even a miniscule possibility?
Am I too late to start over again? Someone tell me what have I become!
When will this brain fog vanish from my inner being? I am sick of being in this vile debris
I am like a wild creature in the den, surviving with an empty stomach and things are getting out of hand; so I wait here empty-handed, feeling extremely dumb and numb
How can I belong in such a vacant lot like this…I can’t believe what I’m seeing honestly…
Copyright © J.W. Earnings | Year Posted 2016
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