Good Bye

I have never been good with goodbye The more things change the more they stay the same I was never one to just break down and cry Now it seems like its all I want to do I am about to leave for the adventure of a lifetime And all I can think about is how I am missing something But I continue to lie telling everyone I’m just fine Now don’t get me wrong I am more than ready to leave It is what I am leaving behind that scares the hell out of me Scared I guess after all of this time that I will be forgotten Pushed away without another thought of how things used to be I have so much that I stand to lose in just a few days A best friend who has never even second guessed me Made me realize just what life is suppose to mean To relax take things as they come and laugh off most things Most of my friends don’t even know that I am still around They say they don’t recognize me anymore Saying there is something that she put there That it is a glow that was never there before That not even people who were the closest to me could do I know this sounds a little confused But right at the moment it is what I am going through Like I am being ever so politely excused But in my heart I think it can’t be that way It would be near impossible I would hope To ever forget the quiet sometimes confused person Who would do anything for anyone including hanging from a rope It took a lot for me to trust anyone that took a second look at me But then I get to close for my own good I can’t help it like I said I hate good bye I hold on far longer than sometimes I should But good bye seems so final in the overall sense of things So can I make it through the day without breaking down As I say good bye and wish you all the best As I drive into town for that final go around I am ready to leave but not ready to say goodbye I don’t think I will ever be