Gods Plan Is Not In My Heart Yet -Mty
More than ever, being pain-free means more to me than ever before.
When you have been wailing and keening in pain you will understand.
Before this pain, I would have said God, my family and my life mean the most.
I have to say being pain-free means more than I ever thought possible.
I have a spiritual belief that death is going to be a rebirth, a wonderfulness
Such as we cannot possibly fathom in this earth life.
I was begging God to take me, to give me the gift of death.
However, He would not let me go, there is more for me to do here. But what?
Is it to be a role model? Is it to build people up to their best degrees?
Am I to finally start my creative writing center/art center for children?
If so, where is the money?
I should be praying for whatever
God is planning, but I have no plan; it is has not been placed in my heart yet.
I am waiting, because I now know there is more for me to do.
God is love. God is benevolence.
He would not have kept me in a torturous, keening wailing screaming state, unless there was a plan.
I am listening. I am praying. I am here, God. Let me know, please.
I am your servant, and I am willing. I am more than ever your servant now.
Written 6-6-2016
Contest: More to Me Poetry Contest
Sponsor: William Kekaula
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