God Paradox

Here is what I cannot fathom: If god is all and evermore why would he follow any treasured church? Why would you love a god to fear? trust a god indifferent? or be guided in his whispers? If he is and has been source and architect why assume he means a plan that is for us? I conclude he either: is bright and refuses the altar; smites so deserves no power; or is not but our will to follow. In any case, I am free to be the best version of me for the sole purpose of earning my sleep.