God Is In Charge Not Me

I am a school counselor Who tries to leave the pain I see at school Or on a school bus Unfortunately, some of it follows me home Gives me nightmares, makes me second guess myself. Empathy does not fix problems So when I am depleted, discouraged, When I am upset that I cannot take a child And keep her safe or make things better I dig into the dirt, and I plant something I plant trees, bushes, and all kinds of flowers My yard looks like a botanical garden I call it dirt therapy and it is the only thing That works for me. Taking me out of pain, Revitalizing me, and helping me to Remember that God is in charge, Not me. I look up at the sun, and I smile Understanding that it is not mine to fix. It is His.