Frozen Flowers

i remember last summer summer , decades ago golden & warm i remember with strengthened ego........ moments lush green . drenched in sweet pain white and blue screens covering roof till lane............. Summer of mamma's womb i remember of rain............. drizzling and slashing faint washing all tears and pain drenching in colorless paint tasting self in soup of pain. i remember last summer summer, decades ago mamma talking ..............whispering lullabies i saw from womb.......blooming lilies. short and big rhododendrons ............flying hair of dandelions cats mewing & doggy tail wagging summer was bright a warm delight i talked to mom without any fright i touched the life, while i was inside I remember last summer ............... summer decades ago............. whrilling , whooshing , shrilling & zooming It was fun inside with everything blooming .............suddenly i fell out with shout ............ no air was in & no womb was out i was alone ..........all alone ......aloud cold and prickly............... ............suffocating & sticky............. I fell out of womb ...............into my tomb I remember last summer ................. summer decades ago , Mommy's womb was warm and bright all mine ; cozy and tight Here i'm now cold and in fright to exist is itself a fright FROZEN FLOWERS of mamma's womb striving hard to get a tomb loosing all warmth & love ...........frozen are the flowers of summer i remember .............. ....................summer decades ago.