Four Years Ago to Now

I remember, I remember the pain, I remember the fear. The loss, the anger, the hurt. Friendships I thought might last forever, Torn apart too soon. People I loved now lost to me. Years ago, I wrote a letter, An old song from the depths of my heart. In this letter, I recall The crushing, clenching pain. I thought it was gone, old and fixed, Oh how wrong I was. I read these words today and the pain returns, The wounds not healed but covered, Ignored and left in the past, I thought they couldn’t hurt me, But the bandage has been torn, ripped from my skin Revealing shredded flesh and weeping blood. My chest is clenching, my heart clutched in yesterday’s bruising grasp. The memories hurt and my tears fall fresh, leaving red tracks against my cheeks, The thoughts I had way back when, The all encompassing ache that filled my heart, It returns again, though not as sharp as once before.