Forgotten Past
Allow me to vanish into thin air
After all it was not your fault
I fell so much in love with you
I was so naïve
To have realised your love for me was not real
Is it my fault I loved you so much and treated you like a king?
You appeared like an angel
Harmless, faithful and full of grace
But deep down you knew you were a monster
Sent from the dark world
To break my heart and leave me in tatters
That night you brought down my pants
And played with my beads
I did not think for a second
To consult the rules that held me together
For the past twenty-four years
In spite of this you said I was stupid
To have loved you the way I did
And that you were playing games with me
But I thought you loved me
And swore you will die for me
I thought we were bound together
In those moments of ecstasy
I cry today for time lost
I cry today for the false hope
I cry today for the for losing my virginity
Why do I still love you in spite of everything?
I want to hate you with all my strength
But the more I try; the more I love you
Tears will not stop rolling down my cheeks
Every time your thoughts crosses my mind
You took advantage of me
Played on my innocence
And treated my love with discontent
Deep down, you know what I say is true
Now love is knocking at my door
But I am afraid to let it in
Afraid I will be hurt again
My heart is bleeding
I live everyday with unanswered questions on my mind
I want to give love a chance to feel me once more
But how do I do that
When my heart has been locked up in cells of yesterday
I cannot continue like this
It’s time to open myself up to happiness
Pick you from my dreams
And dream what I want to dream
Go where I want to go
Be what I want to be
Because I only have one life
And a chance to do all the things I want to do
Now is time to allow happiness to make me sweet
Allow someone else to make me smile
For it takes smiles to make a dark day seem bright
I now let go my past failures and heartaches
You are forgotten my love
For the brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past.
Copyright © Nii-Ayi Solomon | Year Posted 2012
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