Forgiveness Forever

You were my secluded well kept secret My very own private matter Selfishly I wanted you all to myself Authentically, I didn’t want the responsibilities that came with commitment You were genuine, and tolerate You took my pain into your arms and relieved me from my own self destruction You understood my misinterpreted intuition and over looked my careless flaws Your eyes saw pass the mirror image that a normal male would see My soul you identified The real face behind the mask of shame Time after time you took my troubles and made them invisible I leaned on you as if you were a sturdy wall I depended on your strengths to substitute for my weaknesses I manipulated your feelings too feed my bruised ego I used you I betrayed you If I were a humble woman I would fall to my knees and plead for your forgiveness Because a divine human being as yourself is one that you do not let pass you by But I am not I am prideful and arrogant I hide my sensibilities behind the barricade that I have built around heart I am the woman with many scars who can not accept love due to the affliction from my past With sadness the only ability that I have is to offer you my unsteady hand in friendship With hope You accept my submission with an enchanted smile and an open mind My wish That you find an elegant damsel to embrace your abundant love My aspiration That you will forever keep me closely tucked in a confined place near your heart My love Will endlessly remains the shade of gray