Forgiveness

I have made mistake in my past but never as serious as this and i know i will only have myself to blame if you leave and that scares me more and more than i've been scared in my life coz i feel something weired in me whenever i see you. For you're my true motivation the only real thing in which i believe,everythng else is just a fantasy to my egotistical ideals. Its always been me,me for far too long and lately i haven't give even passing thought to your concern i let them past fly me but now i know i was wrong. So please take time to think about what i've said as it comes from the heart. Take time and try to forgive my failure to deliver and if you can't cast me out of your life and never return and i will be put into shame forever