Forever Conflicted

Pushing pulling, falling down, ground glowing, Here and now, then and how, feelings showing. Pull it in, toss it back, you want me then you dont, Wanting to stay, needing to leave, letting go I won't. Wanting it back, doing it over, never again cry on my shoulder. Snowing with the cracking of thunder, Raining with the sun as its cover, Wind blowing away all the wonder. Where do I go, what do I want? Is it me or just a front? Believing I can, firmly I stand, Forever Conflicted.