For Love 5

what if i wait here forever and you never come back. what if i cry a million tears and you never again see me cry. what if i sleep alone every night without your watchful gaze. id rather die than do this thing alone, id rather die than see the sun rise here as ur evening comes and know that you are happier without my love. i dont know where i am, i dont know who you are, i dont see the future anymore dreams are deadly apparitions, and i stay awake smoking hoping never to see u when i sleep i keep the quiet going, every sound reminds me that i miss your voice i keep the dark because it wont remind me of u smiling i keep away from people, people whose hearts arent crushed in their chests right now i keep the body busy so it doesnt crave ur touch, ur kiss, ur breath i hate the waiting for tomorrow...knowing it could be worse than today this feels like u are in the bed with ur back to me avoiding my eyes i dont know what im feeling, i dont know who i am and sleep is not the same without ur love, so i sit here fighting the tidal wave of night, and memories of u. all our love is waiting all our love is miles apart all our love is quiet now all our love is lost in the ether all our love is a moving picture all our love has been the written word all our love is imperfect perfection i cant give this up i wont give up on you until.... i will stay here sleepless i will wait forever