For Jeramiah Jay Cook

Late at night, my eyes are burning as I try not to cry. I hold my breath and wonder why you had to die. I try so hard to fight the tears as I lay around and dream. Memories of younger years... I choke instead of scream. You battled many problems and overcame many things... and you were only a child, No, an angel without wings. You never had the most attention, but you never seemed to complain. But suddenly everyone’s in tears, just whispering your name. You won't get to live the life you very much deserved. No job, no kids, just shattered dreams because you've left this earth. You were only sixteen. Its not right that you're gone. Your heart quit beating, but didn't quit loving. Your spirit will live on. My heavy heart is filled with regret. I didn't say I love you, or goodbye. And with memories I'll never forget, you taught me how to fly. Sometimes I wish I could turn back time, if only for a day. After all, God answers prayers, but this one is thrown away. My vision is blurred with tears, I miss you so bad. But I close my eyes and see you clear and don't feel quite as sad. Pretty soon I'll be grown up but you'll still be sixteen. but like you said, God has a plan, and in the end I'll see. *Note* Jeramiah Jay Cook, my cousin, "buba" and friend passed away Christmas of 2004 at a party. Rumors fly about what it really was. Alcohol, pills.. it had only been 2 months since his own mothers death (mine had died in 96') and so he got his Christmas wish.. to spend it with his Mom. He has been having a really hard time with with substance abuse, but it was far from what I expected when my Aunt called Christmas morning.. Someone I had always looked up to, and grown up with.