For Boys In Coats of Fear

FOR BOYS IN COATS OF FEAR Father caused me the scar of broken voice And now… Healing is difficult. This is what the Scripture says: ‘You will find love everywhere you go’ But somewhere under your roof Your shadow was burning loud And silence was making fool of you So you left for the other room. Your foot was trampling on cold mines And you felt death down your spine You heard mother speak in tongues A proof that she has gone to war You hated the walls, and loved the door You found your ways a-way from home. Somewhere in the market You threw a stone And that broke a neighbour’s skull Father called you a bastard He said he never knew God made errors Until he found you. You cried- and swam into a man. Now Your heart beats so slow Like the weak rhythms of blues You look into the mirror And find a thousand and one flaws Yes! He is never a perfect God. You have failed But your eyes are deserts Because no one ever believed in you A girl comes to you in gold You feel your heart skip a beat But people like you don’t love. You are never alone For I do have a scar too We are boys in coats of fear Together, let’s find healing!