Floating

Numb. Not really feeling anything. Not knowing what you really like or feel. You just sit back and go with the crowd. You connect with people with lies. Falsehood of who you really are inside, because you really don't know. So you make up this character. You put on a play for those around you. They title the play as your life. When in reality, it is nothing like you. The character you play is strong and sure. But in reality.... Your just there. Floating aimlessly. Hoping to one day truly feel an emotion. Because you used to be able to turn them on and off. But now, they stay off and only appear when there is anger, guilt, or sadness to be felt. So you try to hope. Honestly you do.  For the life that never was.  And maybe, if it's In the cards for you. Someday you'll feel happy inside.  But the most you can do is wait. Just wait....