Floating

Bright white light I don't feel the pain anymore No longer sitting in blood I feel light Painless Can you hear me? they ask I try to move Paralyzed in place I give in to the darkness Someone is shaking me I open my eyes White all around Where am I? She's up! they shout I see I am surrounded by my family Am I dead? I try to ask Nothing comes out You almost died, the docter said Almost?! What went wrong? I was ready to die Then I find out that I am still alive I close my eyes This is too much I wake up to you You say what I did was stupid Stop feeling sorry for yourself!, you shout I want to cry but I don't I can't shut your words away You leave but I replay what just happened What happened?! I thought I would leave the pain But once again I was wrong I am back Back for good