First Tears First Pain

It was a day when I was a bit younger
I saw tears in my dads eyes
Never seeing my dad this way before
I asked him why the disguise?

He said "I'm going to have an operation"
"And I'm not sure I am going to make it"
But me being the foolish one that I was
Said "Oh come on dad,I know you can take it"

That day came,everything was going fine
So I figured that all went well
But then that's when that telephone rang
And it blew me all to hell

It was my mom on the other line
Her voice all crackling,and in tears
I then asked her what was wrong?
Because I hadn't heard her that way in years

She said "Daddy's dead, he's gone"
"He didn't make it through the operation"
I said "What?" of course in instant shock
It was that second in life,I had no preperation  

Suddenly my mind began to race 
For the very first time,my eyes started filling with tears
This was the first day I started to feel a pain in my heart
That I have now carried with me through all my years

Contest:Any Emotional Poem
Dan Kearley 8-24-11
Copyright © | Year Posted 2011

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A   Avatar
December 19, 2012 at 2:32 PM
It is nice to visit this poem again. A well done win in my contest.. I recall this contest...PD
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December 1, 2012 at 12:27 PM
Dear Dan, I have to say this is quite a gripping POEM I could feel YOUR Mom"s Sorrow I cried tears with YOU Congratulations on a well deserved win. As I read YOUR POEMS I noticed this is the first one YOU did not number, also did YOU delete some of YOUR earlier Work as the numbers are not in Sequence I am assuming YOU still have them somewhere in YOUR Archives I usually read the POETS POEMS once before I comment I have enjoyed reading YOU LOVE ALWAYS and FOREVER YOUR Liege...Harry (HG)
Guzzi Avatar
April 13, 2012 at 2:26 PM
Hard to lose a parent! Congrad's on your win. Light & Love
Song Avatar
April 11, 2012 at 9:51 AM
Dan, a great poem to enter for PD's contest..so glad it won...I remember this one from last year and really loved your transparency. Hope u are doing great. Gwendolen
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April 10, 2012 at 4:14 PM
Congrats on your win with this touching write. You have truly touched my heart with your honest sharing. I, too, thought my dad would make it. Looking back, I realize I was in denial about his health. God bless you, Dan, and thanks for sharing this poem again. Rhonda
Brown Avatar
April 10, 2012 at 12:49 PM
Congratulations on your win in P.D's "Emotional" contest Dan. Love, Carol
Richards Avatar
April 10, 2012 at 11:07 AM
I have experienced something similar...so your poem has touched me deeply. No matter how many years pass, the tears well up inside...I feel yours now.
Williams Avatar
April 10, 2012 at 10:50 AM
Dan congrats on your win, just heartbreaking..David
Long Avatar
April 10, 2012 at 10:15 AM
congrats on this fabulouw win.. cory
A   Avatar
April 10, 2012 at 9:51 AM
Dan, congratulations with your emotional poem! Thank you very much for sharing something so emotional with us. Some poems, are tough to express and share out in the open. God Bless. Always~ PD
Macfarlane Avatar
November 17, 2011 at 9:21 AM
Beautiful write....you'll have your father forever in your memories and in your heart.
Ball Avatar
August 31, 2011 at 10:35 PM
WoW! My heart really goes out to you with this. We all grow up thinking our parents are immortal and will live forever. It's such a shock to find out they are not. God Bless My Friend. JB
Kearley Avatar
August 31, 2011 at 10:52 PM
So true,so true. Thank you for the blessing :-)
Kearley Avatar
August 29, 2011 at 7:28 PM
Thank you all, for your kind & heartfelt comments.This was the day I learned what sorrow was.
Wesley Avatar
August 28, 2011 at 10:38 PM
Beautiful but sad. The story of loss so well told and with loving tenderness.
Breidenthal Avatar
August 28, 2011 at 7:12 PM
WOW. This poem make me teary...I love it!!!!! Excellent poem! Well done! Well done! I always enjoy reading your work. Always, Laura Breidenthal
Ramage Avatar
August 27, 2011 at 6:54 PM
Dan, a beautiful poem and one of true honesty. Many times people have a premonition that they will die and it is human nature to not want to accept that anything that terrible could happen. Take care and love the memories, you can now let the pain go. Your poem says it all. Lee
La France Avatar
August 26, 2011 at 5:08 PM
Congratulations Dan, for your second place in my contest with this awesome poem~~
Guzzi Avatar
August 26, 2011 at 5:01 PM
I guess it's our true right of passage into adulthood..so sad..congrad's on your win. Light & Love
Song Avatar
August 26, 2011 at 2:48 PM
Wow, Dan....this was a gutsy write. Reflective and right from the depths of the soul where healing begins to spring. Congrats to you and what this poem means. Gwendolen
Dietrich Avatar
August 26, 2011 at 12:04 AM
good heavens, this is the saddest of them all I think VERY heartfelt and congrats on your win.
Fassbender Avatar
August 25, 2011 at 6:16 PM
Thanks for sharing this with us. Such tragedy years later creates a beautiful way to express yourself.
Lane Avatar
August 25, 2011 at 2:37 PM
Great win! Good for you!! Tony
Brown Avatar
August 25, 2011 at 2:14 PM
Congratulations on your well deserved placement in Constance's "A Fragment of Life" contest Dan. Love, Carol
Kendrick Avatar
August 25, 2011 at 12:07 PM
Congrats on your win in this great contest..Sara
Kearley Avatar
August 25, 2011 at 1:56 PM
Thanks Sara,congrats on your poem also
Sweetheart Avatar
August 25, 2011 at 10:57 AM
Congrats Dan on a super second place win with this excellent piece of poetry luv..
Kearley Avatar
August 25, 2011 at 1:54 PM
Thank you Linda :-)
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