Fire is My Soul
It has been a long time since we have truly embraced. The last embrace we had was two years before our reconnecting. In the past, many people would say that we would be great together since we spoke so much and never fought during the first year and the last year. At least, that is what you stated to me. I can only be a friend as these years have reconnected and shown that I was not part of your life back then. The time lost between us cannot be made within weeks. Whatever love I had for you is no longer there. My responses to you have been more of a reaction to the event; however, they are not of my true free will. I wanted to believe we could be together until I realized you were not there to celebrate with me. You do not say anything to me outside of our everyday communication. You genuinely do not love me. If your claimed (in your mind) ex was not sent to the afterlife, then you would still be with them (only in your mind). After the events that have played out for both of us, I realized that I can only keep you in my past heart; however, you cannot be with me in this life as a partner and not in the afterlife as a partner. I will not be a rebound for anyone. Where were you 17 years ago? When I asked you out, you gave me a lame excuse as if you spoke about the event prior with your mother. Leading me on all those years ago assisted in wasting my time when I could have spent time with someone worthy of my love.
Scars run deep, and I cannot speak of the pain that they have caused. What I once felt for you, I no longer felt. The flame in my soul is burning bright as I have seen the deceitful kisses on my cheek from your lips. The wounds of my friends who do not kiss me are faithful. Each time a tear drops from my cheek, it evaporates, and the water will not extinguish the flame. My heart only weeps as I see that I was never necessary to you until your former mate was no longer here. Are you telling me the truth when I never saw you with a mate at your party two years prior? Each night, I spend my time in class after work and on my days off. I need a partner that will be here by my side. You have only given me space. People from the other side of the planet have given me more praise. Friends from different regions have encouraged me to do more. You have not been here by my side. With no regrets, I must decline your advances.
Copyright © Aaron Vialpando | Year Posted 2024
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