Jill Spagnola Poet Rhyme

Fine

FINE
                      Fu#!ed up Insecure Neurotic and Emotional

Oh! Sweet boys of mine, Mom wants you to be way more than fine
When I was a single mom and teaching full-time…
I was in my prime and thought, if I can make this climb…all would be sublime

You were just babes of six months and four; some of my most heavenly days were when we three had the time to explore

You were four years apart…also some of my most arduous days… Lonely at night, yet I possessed a heart full of praise

It was a struggle up till then I found unmatched…No one to share the the joys and the burdens attached

Then along came Jimmy, my first true love and comrade…We were finally complete, no longer a triad…I had found you a Real Dad!

We were stronger than ever for eight wonderful years…Then came the sudden loss, followed by years of tears and fears.  The sinking feeling my family’s progress now in constant arrears

I do not recall how it was that we survived…I feel that since then my dears have not again thrived

Nine years have both dragged and simultaneously flown by…A year of therapy helped give closure to me…You boys would not partake in the counseling that helped set me free

Blessed with a Besty, though hardly the same…My boys, now young adults make choices that make my heart feign...What a mistake to think for a moment the hardest was behind us…That truth I cannot Wait to attain

The older you grow, now ages nineteen and twenty-three…The deeper my heart is wounded by your self-created (fine lives) lacking the luster of glee

Each of you chose different domains…Both scenarios keep me fraught with pains  

As I once more begin to thrive, I bear the suffering of decisions my children continue to contrive

Oh Universe, I implore you…Be kind to my children, let each experience bring them closer to wise

May they seize each day as the gift that it is…bring them out of arrears and closer to striving to Thrive


											Mom

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Vera Duggan March 25, 2016 at 2:56 AM I do love this write Jill, sounds like it comes straight from your heart, absolutely beautiful, thank you so much for sharing part of your personal life story, take care my dear and be kind to your boys give them my regards.....Vera Jill Spagnola March 28, 2016 at 2:06 AM Thank you so much for your genuine feedback. I am and will continue to be kind to them, they are my world, my only family. You are so kind to send your regards to my children. I hope you enjoyed a nice holiday with Peter :) truly...Jill

Pashang Salehi February 25, 2016 at 3:03 AM Make sure your boys and jimmy will read this... Do not fill your eyes with your flowing tears..... cheers Jill Spagnola February 27, 2016 at 4:19 PM Cheers right back to you Pashang. Thank you for your kind comments...Jimmy has passed on and my kids would not read this, cause they are brats:)...Perhaps when I pass they will be mature enough to read pieces I have written concerning their welfare...peace, jill