Feelings That Are Hidden

Have you ever had that feeling Where you feel numb To all the pain Physical and emotional Where you want to throw up And your visions blurry Both your head and Eyes hurt From all the tears you shed But it not just any tears Its tears of love and hate You love a few things But hate a lot more You love someone But he cant be there for you He wishes to be there for you Next to you Helping you heal from all the pain The pain people caused you The pain from self harming The pain from it all You hate your family though Their supposed to be there for you But their not They only care for themselves They don't care for you They never even loved you They just put you through misery Even when the know your having a bad day This is just one of the poem I wrote so far About my pain I have About the feelings I feel About the stuff I go through I write to express my feelings The feelings I keep inside Through out the words That people might understand I draw to show how I feel So you can see it See the hurt and pain In just one masterpiece of mine