Feeling the Fear



I can feel the walls closing in ...
I’m so afraid
of the pulmonary crumbling

The glass ceiling is falling,
shattered expectations of a jagged relation
pierces my Peter Parker abdomen

Serrated intimacy 
got a crimson cold carotid end
I don’t jugular know when the heart attacks began

Such visceral fear got my mind churning,
tense spider senses has my skin crawling
I guess boo neglect is a veiled negligee sin

This panic room ain’t safe 
to fall asleep in ... too much suffocating pillow anxiety
I fear for my emotional sanity

And the coffin walls keep closer inching,
as the worms of guilt start feasting
Got dynamite claustrophobia fear of an aorta cave in

I’m feeling the fear of losing you
in the twilight nightshade — 
Shuttered windows ... bed unmade

I’m so afraid,
deathly afraid
Feeling the tear squeeze of a zero g grave

I can’t breathe  ...  I can’t move
Excruciating pain is closing the lid of my void eyes
Premature hearse ride is the fear of being buried alive

My body felt the crushing darkness,
when I saw the front door never again opening
Love left me ... now I’m feeling soul empty 

I’m so scared and shuddering,
the pulse walls have slammed four closed all hope
And my cell has fell dead silent 


Dedicated to my beloved friend, Kee
Copyright © | Year Posted 2018

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Sharp Avatar
October 19, 2018 at 12:30 PM
Torment very powerfully expressed... but you're Mr Freddie, so be Mr Freddie and transcend... Peace, Rest.
Krutsinger Avatar
October 19, 2018 at 3:11 AM
The entire poem is profound, but if Kee read it, maybe this would not happen: "My body felt the crushing darkness, when I saw the front door never again opening" unless it cannot happen, and then I have to say you have my prayers my friend.
Warrior Avatar
October 18, 2018 at 8:17 PM
Deep & excruciating emotional write my deep and extreme friend...use your spidey-sense lol...love & light...^WW^
Wanter Avatar
October 18, 2018 at 6:25 PM
Extremely powerful to read!
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