Feeling Alone

I feel alone mostly when I'm surrounded by people A crowd I miss you most when I sit among them I can't stop imagining You sitting beside me holding my hand as I always wanted as I always dreamed My family gathered Cousins, relations Brothers, my sister niece & nephews I miss you most when I laugh as I should for what they say sitting with them.... Imagining you beside me holding my hand together with my family I feel how it would've been I see how we would've laughed together... holding hands... It hurts, more than you know I hold it tight the mask I wear Smiling, laughing happy face I hold it tight So I don't let them see what lies behind... my face of tears... I feel alone, I do...