Fear of Myself

I do not want to talk To anyone at the moment, Do not need all this pain in my life: Can't live up to my mistakes and lies; Am so empty inside! What can I say? I keep searching, Can't find anything sweet inside of me; I am rotten all over. Tired of hiding from this horrible monster I created out of myself. My beginning was not like this, I have gone this far, Cannot turn around to see The dirty road I have walked. I hurt myself, my wife, my child; I hate myself for losing All the sweetness I had. I guess there is something I am hiding from; The reality of my failures, Fear of my wishes and self.