Fear of Death

i know im scared to die, but cant run from all my fears, i live my life the way i want, i have all these turns and steers, my life is going by to fast, but i kicked so many years, i do not want what i have now, i can not hold back all these tears. i do have lots of friends, but i dont have many peers, no one listens to me say, but im screaming in their ears, so calm i shall remain, like a pack of wild deers, we should all go out at night, and ill drink while you say cheers.