Favourite Crush

You made me feel less lonely, Sane in a sense. I'm making new friends now- I forgot all my made up ones names. It's not that I'm missing you. I'm really not, just so you know. The best thing to ever happen to me- I just walked out and closed the door. On days like these or honestly in any case- You're the one I would run to. You were one of my favourite places, I think I still love loving you. I look for you everywhere I go, Haven't spoken to you in over a full moon. You look so pretty right now- I don't remember when I last saw you. I don't want to ask you, "Why didn't you look for me?" The answer's within the question- I can't upset my identity. The times you said you like talking to me- Were you just trying to be nice? Did you figure I don't deserve your time? Am I crazy or it was all lies? The first rain of the season, Wasn't enough to wash my recollections. About one of our past moments- The night I asked about limitations. Have you already forgotten about us? Or are you still trying like me? I was surprised when you told me to go- Even though I went to tell you I'm leaving. You're mostly all I write about still, I can't help it, I promise- I never imagined you meant this When you said I was hard to miss. I haven't been crying over this. This is something I'm very used to- In all the midnight conversations, I will always think back to you. It's not like I've never liked anyone, But I've never craved them before. I understand you're not what I need, I'm sorry for asking more- Do I ever cross your mind? You're lucky if I don't, It'll pass if I do- If we can keep this up, We'll be strangers in a month or two. You're not interested, why still am I? My head is screaming "get a grip!" I've tried everything, you know, I told you- You warned me not to fall but still, I slipped. The miserable part about this is You know I want you to read this first- These are my last few months as a teen, I think you'll remain my favourite crush.