Fascinated By the Worst of the Worst

I am fascinated by the worst of the worst of the worst
Watching shows like Criminal Minds
Forensic Files
Stuff that keeps me awake all night
Re-living the horror I felt while I was
Sitting in front of the TV
watching a murder or apocalypse
Too fearful to watch a scary movie, yet watching
Pompeii being covered by bus-loads of lava,
Screaming and dying,
Watching gladiators being torn apart by lions,
Sitting in utter horror, knowing I will be up and down all night
Too terrified to sleep more than two hours at a time,
Waiting for the knife to plunge and the
End to come
Fascinated at the idea of being
Buried alive,
Scared to my bone marrow 
And for what reason?
No clear idea, 
Certainly 
No sense 
In doing this to
Myself, and yet
Here I am, 
Waiting in terror
For the
Unknown 
Them 
To 
Come 
And 
End 
Me
Copyright © | Year Posted 2019

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