Fana: the Falling Away of the Falling Away

So much of life
Is like walking a beach all alone;
Where you began is lost in the white distance behind
Where you are headed a mystery as well.

We carry along two small bags of pretty pebbles
We gather along the way,
One for joys
One for troubles.

Both bags get a little heavier
The further we go.

Mostly it's a long silent walk
With a boundless sea whispering by our side
In a tongue too ancient for the rational mind.

     But here and there we stop,
     Turn to gaze out over that sea,
     Fingering pebbles as we do.

     Sometimes, if we're very lucky,
     When we wait and listen long enough,
     The whisperings begin to make sense.
     We become aware that 
     An unseen Someone,
     A special Beloved,
     Has been pacing us all along;
     That we have never been truly alone.

One must be careful not to turn too fast,
To try to see this Beloved,
Or they will vanish like a snowflake on the tongue.

The trick is to cast one's gaze deep into oneself;
Then the Beloved will appear, laughing at our cleverness,
Then we shall see that our silent companion 
Looks exactly like ourselves
As we appear to others' eyes. 
If we can bear this gaze long enough,

They will vanish before us
We will find ourselves gazing out over that sea with their eyes,
To see it as it truly is: dancing, infinite, eternal, perfect.

     If we can do this but once,
     We can open our bags and toss the pebbles into the sea,
     Even as we realize that sea as well is but a part of us;
     We will understand its language of song and laughter,
     Disappearing into everything joyfully
     To the sound of our own
     Perfect and infinite

     Laughter

As the great whirling dance
Begins again.
Copyright © | Year Posted 2011

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Brown Avatar
July 18, 2012 at 8:09 AM
Congratulations on your two poems making it through round one of the PoetrySoup International Poetry Contest. I wish you the best in the finals Bill. Love, Carol
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January 4, 2012 at 8:10 AM
Congratulations on making it through the 1st round of PoetrySoup International Contest X 2. Wishing you the best in the finals Bill. Love, Carol
Song Avatar
November 16, 2011 at 5:07 PM
William~Brilliance...pure brilliance...appreciate the gathering of stones along life's journey...such a beauty! Gwendolen
Austin Avatar
November 16, 2011 at 12:05 PM
This piece, in many ways, transcends traditional western consciousness. I love it for its "Go into your closet" urgings. Congrats on the selection. LOve, daver
Brown Avatar
November 16, 2011 at 6:17 AM
Congratulations on being featured this week Bill. Love, Carol
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November 16, 2011 at 2:39 AM
Congratulations on your poem being featured this week, William
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