Fallen Brother

My stomach knots and my head is spinning, my blood is pumping and my heart is racing. I sit and wait but my mind is pacing back and forth. My freedom rests in the hands of a total stranger and a lawyer I have never seen. I am asked to trust someone with my life that has never proven anything to me and try to convince me he is competent enough to play god with my life. I had dreams to have a wife and kids but as I sit and wait I see my life slip further and further away. The harder I pray the more what I thought was so clear has now become so dark and grey. The one I love is so far away but I still don't know how to say all I wish to say. All I can think is please stay please stay, and then I look around and realize I was thinking out loud. Some people looked at me as if I was crazy and some looked as if they had sympathy for the pain my heart was going through. I glance around and start to feel all the pain in everyone elses eyes as they die a little just like me. The people that judge our fate must not feel or they would not strip our soul away and play the role of my god. "in loving memory of my brother you will never be forgotten"