Fading confidence

In English I would say I've lost it once again , In poetry le' me say, Bricks and stones Break my bones But words have destroyed What can never be restored . I swear.. I never thought this concrete wall of confidence I have created against every negative word would ever fall apart as I spent decades of hours moulding and moulding my precious mountain made of affirmations and motivations, in hope of one-day I could hide behind it everytime I'm attacked by words that breaks& destroys mine from within. So...you tell me what do I do in-this dilemma.