Facing Reality

It's a hard pill to swallow knowing that something you worked and fought so hard for is just a lost cause and you can't put life on pause, all you can do is wonder and think what a fool you are now there's a handful of people who think they can change who their significant other is or who they used to be love is blind and when you in love and want someone so bad it's kind hard to see the light and everybody goes threw the b.s but you try your best to make things right and you began to wonder he or she isn't even trying despite the fact how far y'all came they say their completely honest with but deep down you know their lying and when you make time for them and they don't make time for you tell me what do you do, what do you do when you think every time you try to reach out to your mate the devils laughing in your face and you finally realize all the time you spent trying to be the best man she was never trying to be the best woman you see you were looking for love but only found heartache in your left bosom she was looking for a sex partner and thats whats real, but behind this reflection in the mirror now after adding your relationship up from it's ups and downs it get to be and seem so much clearer she could never be the woman who you see yourself marrying fact of the matter is she's just the woman with your child she's carrying and the signs were there in the beginning that she was swimming in lust and ashes to ashes dust to dust thats what the end of this relationship was made up of, a relationship that never should have started and now all you're left with is a broken heart thats dearly departed and a mind thats critically injured and all you can say is, its my fault sometimes we have faith in something thats nothing something thats not there, one living in despair and another just too in love to admit that despite of what her lifestyle has always been like he's always forgive and forget, but in the end it was his heart that was gonna be a homicidal casualty, but thats just life I suppose and I'm just facing reality