Excuse Me

Excuse me while I cry myself to sleep at night. Having dreams of happiness this I will never find. Worlds come to life under a blanket of night. A tragic reality I will never reach. Excuse me while I apologize for living, Because I don't feel as if I have a right To breathe the same air as you. Slow shaky breaths are all I get. Excuse me while I turn everything I touch To ruins. Gifted with the wrong Midas touch. Excuse me while I write these words Knowing that I will be the only one to read them. Beating my head against a wall for all the ways I Said I was okay, when I wasn't. Excuse me while I silently kill myself Because I'm scared of going back to the Hospital and speaking up. Not Because of what people would say but, Because I can't bear to see that Look in your eyes again. The look of wasted money. Excuse me while I waste my life writing Poems that will change nothing. Powerful words that impact you Only as far as to shake your head and say, "That's true, something should be done." Excuse me while I listen to your advice that should fix Me but only shreds me open more. Excuse me while I do nothing and everything Wrong. Excuse me while I piss you off With my general existence because you Can't see what's wrong with me. Excuse me while I do the best that I can. Excuse me while I let your words rule my life And rip my self esteem to pieces. Excuse me while I shatter my dreams Of wearing a sleeveless dress with a razor. Excuse me while I implode on my thoughts, Shoving them down because of the simple Fact that I don't want to bother you. Excuse me? No. *****. Excuse yourself.