Endless Loop

Tears fall down like crashing waves Pain that follows me through everyday Broken and abandoned I turn to myself No one else is left to help A darken space where family should be A rotten taste as they make me bleed Torched everyday, for words i dare not say A year and you ran from that place Beaten and forgotten, in the world you had no place Yet I'm going countless years strong With no way to tell this is all wrong Love was never taught yet numbness made the learning curve I dream as if one day it will all go away But I know tomorrow is just the same day I hate hope more then life Yet without it there is no reason to fight Hope is better then nothing So I hold on tight Dreaming of a day without fright So I dream of things Ill never have Pretending one day it wont be this bad What else is there to do When your stuck in an endless loop