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Emotionally Unstable

I'm emotionally unstable. 
No guy should ever try me. 
With my kind of temperament 
 I will only leave their hearts bleeding.
 I'm a heart breaker and I just want to admit my problem. 
 They won't know what hit them once they get a little taste of my poison. 
You see i'm thrill seeker so I may just convince myself that I actually want different
I may just go out and find that Mr. Perfect despite my addiction 
It will be all good for a while and we might even fall deep in love 
                      until I need another hit.
  No amount of Theraphy or love can cure my obsession.
 You see I had a boy friend once and he's an ex now.
 He was all I ever wanted. He was all I ever loved.
  Since he's been gone I've been trying to move on
 but it doesn't seem to be working I just want to be with him. 
              I know i'm a little emotionally unstable 
If he ever said those words "Want to get back together"? I would drop any guy on their 
butts and run back. How stupid does that look and sound? I mean he broke my heart and I keep 
contemplating to just forget about it. But I can't.
                 So many guys want to wine and dine me yet i'm stuck on this fool. 
It's impossible for me to give any guy a guarantee. A guarantee that I won't roam. A guarantee 
 that I will stay faithful. Cause no matter how good they treat me there will always be 
something in the back of my mind that will make me want him back even if it's no strings 
attached.
                            Just to feel his touch again
 I would lose a husband and a ring. Just to experience that high of just being his guy or just his 
something I would give up anything. Most guys don't get that sort of picture when they first look 
at me... All they see is a pretty face. Nice conversation. good company. If they only knew that 
deep under the surface i'm emotionally unstable and that I can't be trusted. 
                                     The problem I have is unrequited love. 
         It sucks but more for the guys because no matter what I will always be breaking hearts.
                    It's cause I'm emotionally unstable. It's cause once upon a time I was in love.

Copyright © Shahana Jackson | Year Posted 2006

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