Dueling Sleep

I sleep for minutes at a time And wake up with more on my mind It’s not enough to be king of it all When you see how quickly you’ll fall Can you feel the weight of the sea As the waves crash and the wheel weaves? This silken home can’t comfort the past The weeds have dug too deep to last Violence paints a red streak across the walls It taints our thoughts and beckons our calls Bits of dreams are stripped and dashed As shells of humans line the paths What’s my purpose? Tell me now I need a reason What can I stand for? I feel too weak to stand for something Can you tell me at least Am I a man or a beast? I can’t tell anymore As we both slam the door I’ve lost my mind through a lifetime of self abuse The gaps through my mind leave a trail of excuses I can’t find a way out of this darkness A lamp and a map can’t span the emptiness So I’ll cut off a limb for each mistake I’ve caused I’ll leave nothing but a black spot on our walls My last piece of art is left at its best Your broken heart inside my bleeding chest