Downside of a Writer

They say Im a lover but I know I can also be a fighter/ Im living in darkness today knowing tomorrow ain't going to get any brighter/ Im so heavy in the pain I don't know when *****in life is going to get any lighter/ My *****in life is all crooked and loose I don't think it's going to get any straighter or tighter/ I just need to be useful and not happy is what I lost sight of/ Im a matchbook making matches light up because without me there ain't no striker/ Im just a lost poet trying to find deep within this hard head as a true Writer.....