DOMESTIC VIOLENCE SURVIVOR WEARING WIRES PREGNANT FOR THE FBI CONTINUES

MY PRAYERS ARE WITH ALL DOMESTIC VIOLENCE VICTIMS AND SURVIVORS MY DOMESTIC VIOLENCE SITUATION STEMMED FROM MY WEARING WIRES PREGNANT FOR THE FBI BUYING WEAPONS AND DRUGS FROM JUNK SICK COPS BECAUSE THE FBI WARNED ME MY ABUSIVE HUSBAND HAD BE INVOLVED IN ARSON RESULTING IN 8 PERSONS DEATH I WAS LITERALLY BEATEN INTO SILENCE SPENDING WEEKS MONTHS IS DOMESTIC VIOLENCE SHELTERS ACROSS AMERICAN A SAFE PLACE HARBOR LIGHTS CLEVELAND SAINT ANGELIENE CHRISTIAN HOME SOJOURNERS TRUTH HOME SPRINGS OF TAMPA KNIGHTS OF KINDNESS MARATHON THE MANY LIGHTS THAT TURNED ON AS I RAN SCREAMING IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT OFFERING ME SHELTER GAUZE BANDAGES HELPING ME PARAMEDICS I SUFFERED IN SILENCE WHILE MY CHILDREN AND I ROAD WITH THE FBI I OFTEN WONDERED IF I LEFT BLOOD STAINS FROM BLOODY WOUNDS HE WOULD BE ENRAGED AFTER TESTING THE DRUGS OUT TO MAKE SURE IT WAS REAL GRADE A COCAINE ENJOYING HIMSELF WITH THE DEALERS WHILE I STOOD THERE PREGNANT WIRES CONNEVTED TO MY WOMB SWALLOWING FEAR AMAZING I COULDN'T SPEAK THEN NOT UNTIL MY NERVOUS BREAKDOWN AFRAID OF MY SHADOW AFRAID HE WOULD RETURN NO MATTER HOW MANY MILES AWAY HE WAS THE KIDS SCHOOLS ACROSS AMERICA ON HIGH ALERT FOR MY ABUSIVE HUSBAND HE WAS CLEVER SO HE WOULD FIND US PUNCHING PULLING MY HAIR UNTIL THE NEXT SAFEHOUSE HAVING A JUNK SICK HUSBAND GETTING HIS DRUG SUPPLY FROM THE FBI HE WOULD ALWAYS PUT HIM SOME DRUGS TO THE SIDE TO USE LATER THIS GAVE HIM POWER PEOPLE REALLY THOUGHT HE WAS THIS BIG DRUG DEALER WHEN ACTUALLY HE WAS A JUNKIE FULL BLOW HE USED MORE MEANING MORE BEATINGS DEALERS GAVE HIM DRUGS HE RAN OFF UNTIL IT WAS TIME FOR ME TO GO BACK UNDERCOVER YES THE STATE DEPARTMENT PAID US MONIES UNDER MY IDENTITY SIX WEEKS AFTER EVERY BUY HE WAS A FELON FROM FORT ELEVENTH WORTH TRANSFERRED FROM MANHEIM BERLIN GERMANY THE FBI COULDN'T USE HIM SO MY IDENTITY WAS IN USE HE PUNISHED THE HELL OUT OF ME LITERALLY A POUND A FLESH FOR A POUND OF COCAINE I THOUGHT THE FBI COULD SMELL MY BLOOD ON MY SWEATER HE WAS SO ANGRY I WOULDNT GIVE HIM THE MONIES FOR OUR RELOCATION HE THROUGH A HAND WEIGHT BUSTING MY ELBOW I STILL WALKED TO THE AGENTS CAR AND SMILED A PAINFUL SMIRK AND WENT TO WORK WITH THE AGENTS DIDN'T MATTER AS SOON AS THE FBI DROVE OFF PUNCHING SLAPPING SPITTING HE'D TAKE THE MONIES AND BE GONE FOR WEEKS IT WAS OKAY BECAUSE HE WAS BEATING WHILE HE WAS GONE USING FBI DRUGS ALL OVER TOWN MY CHILDREN ANDNI SUFFERED IT WAS A BLESSING I SURVIVED AT ALL SUFFERING WITH SEVERE EMOTIONAL MENTAL ILLNESS PTSD SEVERE DEPRESSIVE DISORDER I COULDN'T STOP CRYING FIR WEEKS MY FEAR WASN'T JUST KILLERS AND DEALERS IT WAS MY ABUSER HE WOULD HOLD ME KNIFE POINT WITH HIS KFORCE KNIFE THE ONLY THING HE DID GET FROM HIS ARMY ADVENTURE HE PUT IT TO MY THROAT OR MY SIDE EVERYTIME CIRO WOULD CALL COLLECT HE'D PUNCH ME WHAT DID HE SAY I TRULY DIDN'T REALIZE THEN WHAT I REALLY KNEW IT WAS CLEAR THE FBI TOLD ME MY HUSBAND TORCHED A BUILDING FOR CIRO THAT KILLED 8 PERSON BEFORE I KNEW IT I'M WEARING WIRES PREGNANT FOR THE FBI BUYING WEAPONS AND DRUGS FOR THE FBI TO GET CIRO’S PRISON TIME CUT OR TO COVER UP THE ARSON MURDERS OR PERHAPS MY WORK WAS JUST TO PROTECT THE KIDS AND I EITHER WAY IT BROKE ME INTO WITH SEVERE NIGHT TERRORS PANIC ATTACKS DISABLED YOUNG MOTHER THE TRAUMATIC NIGHT TERRORS BEGAN WAY BEFORE MY TRAUMATIC BRAIN INJURY SITTING IN THE DOMESTIC VIOLENCE SHELTERS OTHER WOMEN WITH HORROR STORIES TOO CHILDREN BURN BROKEN BONES MY CHILDREN WITNESSED MY BRUTAL TORYURE HELD HISTAGE BY A MADMAN WITH A KFORCE ARMY KNIFE IN MY SUDE WEARING FULL FATIGUES GETTING FAR AWAY FROM HIM WAS A BLESSING HERE IN AMERICA BEING AMERICAN SURVIVOR BEING ABUSED TORTURED SEATED WITH FBI AGENTS BUYING WEAPONS AND DRUGS FOR THE FBI FROM JUNK SICK COPS I FEARED GOING BACK TO THE TRAIN STATION BECAUSE AFTER THE FBI PULLED OFF HE BEAT ME AGAIN FOR THE MONEY AND BECAUSE HE TOOK HIS SUPPLY BEFORE HANDING THE DRUGS OVER TO THE FBI I GAVE THE DEALERS THE MONEY THEY GAVE MY ABUSIVE JUNKSICK HUSBAND THE DRUGS I NEVER TOUCHED THE DRUGS BECAUSE I WAS PREGNANT MY JUNK SICK HUSBAND HE ENJOYED THIS HE GOT TO TEST IT STASH HOME FOR LATER THE REST TO THE FBI IF I SAID ONE WORD HE'D RIP MY HAIR RIGHT OUT FROM THE ROOTS TOOK YEARS OF THERAPY AND I THANK THEM ALL DOMESTIC VIOLENCE AND WEARING WIRES PREGNANT FOR THE FBI BUYING WEAPONS AND DRUGS FROM JUNK SICK COPS SIDE BY SIDE A JUNK SICK DOMESTIC ABUSIVE HUSBAND BITTER WITH AMERICA FOR KICKING HIM OUT THE ARMY WITH A NOTHING TO LOSE ATTITUDE I WAS BLESSED MY POP HELPED REBUILD GERMANY HOUSING THEY ALLOWED THE KIDS AND US TO STAY WHILE HE WENT TO BERLIN PRISON HIS HATRED FOR WOMEN WAS BECAUSE HIS MOTHER DIED LEAVING HIM WITH A SISTER ON HEROIN AFTER HIS COURT MARTIAL HEARING I JUST DIDN'T KNOW WHO OR WHAT HE WAS I BEGAN WORKING AS THE QUARTER GIRL AT THEE ARCADE HE WAS JEALOUS THAT CIRO OFFERED HIM A JOB AT THE SHOP LIFE AS I ONCE KNEW IT CHANGED DOMESTIC VIOLENCE CHANGED MY VERY BEING THE MERE NOTION OF MY STALKER JAY TOWNSEND JOHNSON HENRY SEATED WITH MY DOMESTIC ABUSERS IS UNCANNINGLY HORRIFYING SIMPLY BECAUSE GARGANO SENT HER INTO MY HOME TO READ PARTS OF MY MENTAL HEALTH JOURNAL AS I WROTE ABOUT THAT CHRISTMAS DAY 8 PERSONS DIED IN A FIRE THE FBI TOLD ME MY ABUSIVE HUSBAND SET THESE OLD WOUNDS I RELIVE EVERYDAY THE SHEER TERROR OF AN IMPOSTER A STALKER RIPPING PAGES ON MY NIGHTS STAND HACKING INTO MY LIFE EXPOSING ME TO KILLERS DEALERS BELIEVING SHE COULD MURDER ME AND BECOME ME THERE WAS NO GLAMOUR IN MY WEARING WIRES PREGNANT FOR FBI PREGNANT WITH 4 YOUNG CHILDREN IN THE BACKSEAT WITH AN ABUSIVE MADMAN WITH A NOTHING TO LOSE ATTITUDE TORTURING HIS WIFE I'M SO VERY BLESSED I SURVIVED THROUGH ON GOING PSYCHIATRIC CARE THERAPY AND A WONDERFUL HUSBAND WHO LOVES AND SUPPORTS ME TOGETHER WE HAVE BUILT BRIDGES OF HOPE LOVE CHARITY AND PURE JOY OF GIVING BACK TO OUR COMMUNITY SAVING LIVES GOD BLESS THE DOMESTIC VIOLENCE OUTREACH OF AMERICA I'M ALIVE MY CHILDREN ARE ALIVE BECAUSE I ESCAPED THE HORRINDOUS TERROR ANTHONY AND YOLANDA CATHOLIC WAR VETERANS