Dis-Order

I sit here twitching, shaking, in a panic
I don’t want to do this again, I hate feeling frantic
Don’t let this happen, don’t let me slip away
Into the darkest depths of my mind, nothing to say

At first these experiences seem inviting
But here there’s no such thing as deciding
The light is so bright and luminous at first
Until its’ quickly dimmed and the pain it causes hurts

The darkness creeps in like a predator
With the dim light as it’s’ competitor
Who’s going to win this time, this fight?
Who’s going to give the hardest bite?

Stuck between pure happiness and sadness
There is no explanation to this uncomfortable madness
Waiting, waiting; for this too shall pass
While the emotions in my head encompass

My heart surrounding the insufficiencies of my head
The feelings so heavy as if my heart is fashioned out of lead
Like I’ve got shackles on my hands and around my feet
In this state of mind everything seems obsolete
Copyright © | Year Posted 2014

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August 25, 2015 at 10:35 PM
Aubrey, Enjoyed this very much... SKAT
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October 25, 2014 at 9:05 AM
Ohhh what a great poem. Luckily I have read. You are fighting against a pathological disorder. a tough fight you give with a running commentry of every moment while the darkness creeps in like a predator. Wow it reminds me of an epic fight between DHARMA and ADHARMA in battlefield of Kurukshetra ( Mahabharata-the Indian epic, most ancient and largest in the world where Sanjoy was the commentator). I can attest this poem is based on sound psychological assay.Aubrey , more write please..rajat
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