Disclaimer: Freewrite
here i live day to day laughing everything off
because, here's a secret:
life isn't as big a deal as everyone makes it out to be.
Attitude reflects everything we are, we've been,
we've felt, we've had, we've seen, we've hurt...
I am a girl with wants I misconstrue as needs,
I've been blessed in ways I'll never deserve
I've felt a sense of community in being alone
I've had everything I thought was clarity turn out clearly wrong
I've seen myself in your eyes [then wanted to gouge them out]
I've hurt others, and wished it were me
Sometimes I spend my time dreaming of another place
where it always rains when I'm sad,
but I never have to explain why--
Today I woke up before my alarm
and lay in bed wondering of all the places
I'll ever sleep, and all the people I'll wake up
thinking about-- if God gave me a bulleted,
chronological
list
would it still happen?
Sometimes I think he's given me the list
and I've already misplaced it
in the neat mess I call my room-
"I swear I know where everything is"
may be true when I say it--
but nothing always applies, and right now
I don't know the whereabouts of anything
or anyone.
The only thing I know
is that nothing is as big a deal as we think it is,
including this poem--
take it or leave it
Copyright © Christy Totten | Year Posted 2007
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