Disappearing

From the time i could understand words
People have told me how i got everything easy
But the demons in my mind have come in herds
And the thought in my head can be pretty breezy

They say things like how im smart and well mannered
They say that things are supposed to work out for me
They act like i set some sort of high standard
Of which im suppoesed to be the epitome

But i think all this is unfair and not true
Because even if all the things they say appear to be right
Then how come i dont feel it on the inside too
My tunnel is dark and at the end there is no light

Its like im drowning and my lungs are filling with water
But i dont die instead into the deep depths i sink
In my head there is a never ending slaughter
And it's of all the happy thoughts that i think

Gone like wind into the air i breathe so fast
It is the waste of time i have that i fear
They ask me to look for the clues of why in my past
But it's even in their minds that i disappear
Copyright © | Year Posted 2010

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