Dilemma

So lost-not able to find Helpless--a drive by shooting-- Regaining regrouping needed-- Lost to myself--where did you go? Something tearing inside--fragmented-- No tools for repairing the breakage-- Lost in turmoil, confusion lives strong-- No retrieving what is lost--forever comes to mind-- A maze of thoughts-- Hazy at best-- No understanding--meaning cannot be found-- No trusting, lost in bewilderment-- No hope, no surviving-- Effort missing, sensibility lacking Lost to no one, no one lost Me is in the heart of it Lost lost lost Agony lives strong Disintegrating in anguish-- Nothing to lose; nothing to gain-- Darkness/light no difference--