Depression

Depression Why do I feel like this inside? Why do I keep all my tears inside? Why can't I just fit in? To belong to a world,that will except me for whom I am within. Why is it so hard to say "I can"? Is it because my mind is always in la la land? I can't really help the things I do, I'm mad at the world for what I'v been through. No one can seem to understand, that I am what I am! I know that I have plenty of disability, that keeps me from being the person I want to be. It hold me back from the things I want out of life. I just can't seem to get things right. It's so hard for me to see my inner beauty, when I feel like the world is out to get me! I don't want to feel so isolated within, I just can't let you in. Stop telling me that it's going to be ok. You don't know what goes on in my mind, and why It's keeps taking me back in time. Replaying all the things that happend in my life, like I'm a walking recorder device. I just can't grasp the real meaning of life. I just can't mange to make mine right! Why can't I just get over the pain? To move on, and get away from the past that keeps holding me back. I want to feel loved, for who I am. That they loved me for me, and not what they want me to be! I know who I am, I am what you see. I can' comperehend sometimes, I can't seem to take things in. I'm mad at myself, because I'm lost within.... This is what you call depression!