Depressed Isolation

They say i can't be insecure because I'm a boy, just because I'm a boy I have to be a man otherwise I'm a disgrace to the society. The pressure they offer me is far worse than my insecureness. Sometimes I even wonder if there's any cure for my insecureness because the more depressed i get the more insecure I become Whenever I go to the outside world,I fake my self confidence. Deep down I know that I am dead inside. Some will envy me for my "self confidence " not Knowing that it's a lie. After all I'm tryna be a man