Delusion of Grandeur

When manic, I feel, think, and speak like God:
     like Superman (or the world’s savior)!
The rush from feeling like a demi-god
     makes me believe I am a conqueror, 

like another Alexander the Great!
     So when I’m flung to the abyss of hell
when these erratic moods abruptly abate,
     I rapidly cycle so that I can't tell

the bottomless and profound lows that turn 
     these immortal, Olympian, speed-like highs
into abject spiritual dead-ends; I learn 
     that (as this disorder intensifies)

delusions of real grandeur soon grow tempting, 
especially when life feels not worth living.
Copyright © | Year Posted 2015

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