I lock myself in my mind
And the troubles begin to unwind.
The numbness swoops over me and in the darkness I go
To find the answers to that of which I already know
The irony of falling is the knowing and unknowing of thy soul
Parts of you missing those others stole
I just want to close my eyes as I feel
Trying to figure out if this **** is really real
This pressure inside my chest that throbs so deep
The tears that swell my eyes and start to weep
Feeling both the inner and outer of my being at the same time
Hydroplaning life with no sign
The spiral down is the scariest because it seems without end
You start to feel your foundation crack and bend
Swaying in exhaustion from just trying to understand
Reaching out to myself with my own hand
An ocean with the darkest depths
Is where my mind is pulled in by tide and swept
Breathing is a struggle because the pain is sharp
I get turned inside out through my heart
All I want to do is rest the hurt away
Forget about that bad day
Feel normal again
Forget it happened.
But the inside cries keep me awake
And like shattered glass I begin to break
I fill with rage and anger for what I have endured
And loath the deception in which I was leered
Shaken by the rush of thinking too much
Searching for answers and finding no such
Desperate for freedom from this flesh of hell
It has burned me alive each time I fell.
Peace I seek, glory in light
So I keep on through this dark and lonely night
With my body emotions grow
And when I am ready, I breathe and
Let them go.
Then I feel fine
And safe once again in my own mind.
Copyright © Izzy B Hearty Brave Heart | Year Posted 2016
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