Deep Descend

I lock myself in my mind And the troubles begin to unwind. The numbness swoops over me and in the darkness I go To find the answers to that of which I already know The irony of falling is the knowing and unknowing of thy soul Parts of you missing those others stole I just want to close my eyes as I feel Trying to figure out if this **** is really real This pressure inside my chest that throbs so deep The tears that swell my eyes and start to weep Feeling both the inner and outer of my being at the same time Hydroplaning life with no sign The spiral down is the scariest because it seems without end You start to feel your foundation crack and bend Swaying in exhaustion from just trying to understand Reaching out to myself with my own hand An ocean with the darkest depths Is where my mind is pulled in by tide and swept Breathing is a struggle because the pain is sharp I get turned inside out through my heart All I want to do is rest the hurt away Forget about that bad day Feel normal again Forget it happened. But the inside cries keep me awake And like shattered glass I begin to break I fill with rage and anger for what I have endured And loath the deception in which I was leered Shaken by the rush of thinking too much Searching for answers and finding no such Desperate for freedom from this flesh of hell It has burned me alive each time I fell. Peace I seek, glory in light So I keep on through this dark and lonely night With my body emotions grow And when I am ready, I breathe and Let them go. Then I feel fine And safe once again in my own mind.