Decision

reasons to live and one to die these are the thoughts from a widower's mind darkness prevails and most often wins drowning in sorrow, self-pity and sin for each mortal step brings me closer to her and God's mighty wrath i most likely incur yet over my shoulder they're screaming at me it's not what she wants and why can't you see but if i choose life am i walking away from the love of my life by prolonging the day that we are together forever as one this thought at face value is morally wrong yet as humans we strive to avoid any pain by whatever means and without any restraints the decision does lie in the palm of my hands to live with this pain and all it's demands or slowly with malice drink till i am gone thoughts of nothing but me, forsake every one the choice is so simple so easy to choose Lord give me the strength for it's my life to lose reasons to live and one to die these are the thoughts from a widower's mind